five years from now

I won't write anything about my future plans,dreams or perspectives.Even my imagination is helpless here. It is because I don't like thinking about my future as I'm rather pessimistic about it. It is the only thing I'm pessimistic about and the only thing that makes me upset when I'm thinking about. Too many dreams and plans fell through. Too many times I was disappointed with reality. To tell you the truth, I'm afraid of future. Yes, I am. I'm terrified, petrified, mortified, stupified by future visions...;) and I prefer concentrate on the present moment. The future is not guaranteed.